Chapter 5 Page 22
Posted February 6, 2022 at 6:37 pm

Hey, all. Long time no see.

I've been dreading updating my site for a really long time because no matter how many times I've turned it over in my head, I just can't find the words to even begin to explain what's been going on in my life. Even now, I still have no clue what to say.

So much has changed since the last Monsterkind update. As time went on, the idea of reappearing online, of finally updating my comic, became more and more daunting and scary. It still is. I wish I could convey those anxieties in a satisfying way that answers all your questions, but all I can say is that my life has been in a constant state of disarray, and the responsibilities I had to Monsterkind and all its readers fell by the wayside. I failed to properly carry out the Book Two Kickstarter (rewards are still being fulfilled years and years later), and that alone has been a huge weight and source of stress in my life.

It feels like coming back here with so little to offer in the way of an explanation is so cheap. I wish I could do better, but even posting these pages, which have been sitting in my hard drive since the beginning of 2020, is already a colossal task for me mentally.

I love Monsterkind, I cherish all its readers who have stuck around or kept up with me on social media. I feel incredibly lucky to have built this comic and experience all the joys and pains of sharing a creative work. Making comics has taken me really far. I've been happily employed in the animation industry since 2017, and I don't think I could've made it that far without you or Monsterkind as a shining light in my life.

I'm dealing with a lot of really heavy experiences in my life, so I'm still struggling to find solid ground on... anything really. Covid tore my life apart, and I've been desperately trying to put the pieces back together.

I don't know when the next Monsterkind update will be. I'm doing my best to rediscover myself and my passions through all of the pain I've experienced in such a short time. I feel disconnected and disassociated from both myself and my aspirations. Creativity has been a struggle, and I don't know how long it's going to take for me to be able to work through and move on from the trauma I've been through.

Regardless, I wanted to tell you that I'm still here, and I haven't forgotten Monsterkind.

If you're still here, I can't tell you just how honored and thankful I am for your support and resilience.

I have a long road to recovery ahead of me, but I'm going to do my very best until the very end.

Thank you for reading <3